A place to meet myself in total honesty and that I matter in this sometimes crazy world. I’ve learnt that I have a voice and to speak up. Even when others may not like what I have say.

At my first Gift in 2003 I learned that there really was a “place for me to be” and there was no turning back. I wanted to learn how to hold space for women in the amazingly supportive way that I experienced.

I have never experienced anything like The Gift in my life. Each time I have experienced it, I am surprised by myself and what emerges. I experience this as an intense journey that offers me deepening and expansion in ways that are unpredictable and highly energizing and grounding.

I found the power of The Grail is that it doesn’t try to teach anything or turn us into anything. It helps men to drop our masks and armour so we can find, meet and embrace our true self; as scary and exhilarating as that is.

I have already uncovered so much more of myself and I have so many more tools. Why would I not want to keep playing with all these great women?

I didn’t want anyone to know how dead I was inside. Since The Grail, I can tell you that I have never felt more alive, more whole, more balanced in my entire life.”

In this task filled, pressured life, The Gift is a place of safety where I can be my “true self” and see others the same way. Shematrix is an organisation that has supported me in continuing to explore the deeper parts of myself and my life.

I am now part of a brotherhood, a community of men, of like-minded men. I’ve been back to The Grail and I keep coming back for the depth, the humility and the wholeheartedness I feel when I come here.

The Grail was the making of me as a man. The challenge was daunting but the environment was inclusive and honest, and I felt safe and held enough to finally surrender. With gratitude to my brothers, I have started the journey of my life.

At that first Gift I attended I sat and watched the guides and said “one day I’ll do that for women”. The inspiration for me was in the witnessing of such transformation within the women and the great power that was held in sacred space.